I just felt like writing today. In case you haven’t noticed, I haven’t felt like that in a long time. So, why today? What’s different? Nothing, really. I’m in Tulsa in “my” room in my friend Patty’s house. I’m back for the Route 66 Marathon for the 8th year in a row, although for the 3rd year in a row, I didn’t run any of the races. Everything is the same. Everything has changed. The old blog is still here, though, and so are you.

When you haven’t caught up with someone in a long time, it’s like you have so much to say that you don’t even know where to start. I find myself feeling exactly like that today. What do I even begin to tell you about the past 14 months? I saw my friend John, a longtime reader since probably the very beginning of this blog, at the race expo this weekend. He asked me to write occasionally, just to let everyone know I’m still here and doing ok. I didn’t make any promises, but here we are.

I’ve got a few things I want to post about, but I’m not sure I’ll get to any of them. This might be the last you hear from me for another year, but stranger things have happened. Anyway, I want to say I’m sorry that you haven’t heard from me, and I want to thank all of you who have reached out via email, Facebook, and Instagram to be like “Yo, did you die?” I did not die. You want to know the very boring reason I haven’t written in so long? It’s because in my real life (the life I have where I make money), all I do is write. I’ve been fortunate to be promoted several times in the past year and my day job is no longer all about snakes and bugs. I work from home full time and I write nonstop. My side job (copy writing/social media/content creation for businesses and events) has blossomed into nearly a career of its own, and my weekends are spent doing freelance writing. In short? I write all week and the last thing I want to do is write for free. It’s nothing personal, and it’s nothing juicy. There’s nothing to it more complicated than that.

Proof of life photo

I’ve also had a couple of surgeries and injuries since June 2018 that kept me away from running for over a year. Part of that was recovery and part of the year was I just had no desire to run. At this point, I have nothing to prove to myself in the world of running, so I figured I would come back to the sport when and if the desire struck. This summer, after AJ and I moved (same-ish area, different house), I got the bug back and started running again in the dead of summer. Why? I have no idea. But I did my first half marathon in 18 months on October 26.

Spinx Runfest Half Marathon in October

That got me thinking about doing another marathon, and I’d really like to. Will I train for one? Good question. I’ve got my eye on the Mississauga Marathon in the spring, and I’ve applied for Berlin and New York in the fall (wishful thinking, I know). Since stepping way back from marathons after my back surgery, I’ve come to really appreciate the build up of a full marathon training cycle. I’ve also come to love sleeping in on weekends. Call me crazy. So, stay tuned, or maybe don’t, because I’m not sure I’ll write about it if I train for a marathon. Maybe I’ll just surprise you with a random Instagram post of myself in Berlin? Time will tell.

Ok, so why don’t I post about my runs on social media anymore? Two reasons. One, they’re pretty depressing – I’m not exactly burning up the roads these days with my blinding speed. Two, I’ve stopped using social media on Shabbat (Friday night – Saturday night) in an attempt to separate myself a little from the social media world. Saturday mornings are the time I usually do my long runs, and my social media is disabled then. Could I post later? Sure, but by that point, it seems irrelevant. Also, as much as I like where I live, I would not exactly be wowing you with the scenery. “Oh look, here’s the dog that has bitten me twice in one month!” or “Wow, here is another bag filled with deer organs!” Both of those are true stories, and yes, animal control is involved about the dog.

How’s sweet baby AJ? He’s doing great. He’s a total mensch and I love his little face. Before you ask, we’re not fostering anymore. We did have an overnight emergency placement in the spring, and we do regularly speak to both of our foster sons, but we ultimately decided that parenthood is not the right path for us. There are a lot of ways to make our mark on the world and we’re still exploring what that looks like for us, but we’ve pretty firmly decided that children are not in our future. We certainly gave it the old college try though, didn’t we? In the mean time, we’ve busied ourselves with approximately a million (3.5) pets since losing Rocket last December. We’ve got a Greater Swiss Mountain Dog puppy (Goose) that we got at 10 weeks old, a Rottweiler named Moe that we adopted a couple months ago, a cat named Gritty, and another kitten named Pauly D that we’re probably going to end up adopting. This is why AJ was terrified of Rocket dying – he knew I would stuff the house with pets as soon as I had the opportunity. #sorrynotsorry

Me and Goose a couple weeks ago (he’s 115 pounds and growing). I’m wearing all my favorite KUHL gear as always!

As far as travel goes, I do travel a lot these days, but it is mostly for work – either my day job or my freelance work. I went to Israel back in May, and AJ and I will take a short cruise to the Bahamas in December and then hit France and Luxembourg in the spring, but my international travel has taken a backseat to my career, not unlike everything else in my life. I’m hoping to change that in 2020, but time will tell!

It’s crazy to think that 10 years ago this March, I ran my very first marathon. Ten years later, I’ve run 52 marathons. My life was so very different then. I was embroiled in a terrible marriage to my first husband, was consumed by an eating disorder, and quite frankly, had no idea where my life was headed. Since I started my blog in 2011, you guys have seen me grow up – the good, the bad, the embarrassing, and the amazing. It’s not lost on me how rare it is in life to have people who have been with you since the beginning, and I feel like you all have been with me since the beginning of my adulthood. Even though I don’t know all of you, you really do know a lot about me. So, here’s what I want you to know – I’m great. I’m busy, I’m stressed, and I’m frequently overwhelmed, but it’s all by choice, and I’m exactly where I want to be in my life. I can’t say that in 2009 I would have ever pictured this to be what my 2019 looked like, but Baruch Hashem – Thank Gd – I am so grateful that this is what it is. Thank you for being there with me no matter how long I go between posts.

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