Uh, yeah. The title is exactly what it sounds like.
This is a quick post to let you know I’m alive. Suffice to say, things are absolutely nuts. Work is non-stop, barre instructor training has been a lot more time consuming than I expected, and I just spent the weekend in Portland at our intensive training (think 12 hours a day of barre every day for 3 days). Combine that with a red-eye back home, tons of deadlines, and a house that still looks like it has been through a tornado, and here we are.
I am trying really hard to keep my head above water, but if I am being honest, it is a challenge at best. I am the type of person who takes my commitments very seriously, and I get majorly stressed out if I feel like I am letting people down. I want everyone to be happy and that is often at my own expense. The reality is that I put too much on my plate and underestimated my schedule, but I’ve made my own bed, so now I have to lie in it. A few things, like this blog and my sleep, are clearly falling by the wayside because unfortunately, they’re sort of flexible.
I know that things will calm down eventually and I take great solace in that, but for now, I’m running around like a chicken with my head cut off. Or should I say I’m not running around. My HOKAs pretty much just glare at me every day when I open my closet. I ran once last week because I have spent every spare minute that I’m not working training for barre. It looks like that will be the case for the next few weeks. I am running every time I possibly can…it’s just not very often right now.
I’m trying not to beat myself up, but at this point, I feel like I suck at pretty much everything. It’s a side effect of spreading myself too thin, to be sure. You’d think I would have learned by now, but I have way too many interests and there are so many things that I want to commit myself to that I just never learn. I am fortunate to say, however, that I truly enjoy all the things I am doing – I just wish I had more time to do all of them!
Anyway, I will do the best I can to post. I am literally racked with guilt every time I don’t post regularly, so please know that it is on my mind. I am responding to emails as quickly as I can, so please be patient and keep sending them! I do read them all and I will respond to every single one. Til next time, pray for AJ’s sanity. He needs it dealing with me!
Do you frequently over-extend yourself?